'Fright' then Flight...

Deu 32:10b-11

He shielded him and cared for him; he guarded him as the apple of his eye, like an eagle that stirs up its nest and hovers over its young, that spreads its wings to catch them and carries them on its pinions. =)

Drawing strength and motivation from this verse over the past few weeks.. =) Thank God for the timely verse and new perspective which He gave when I went to the BSF intro lecture sometime ago..

Hmm, a lil discouraged for sometime and doubting my competency...think it doesn't help as workload is almost peaking as the later half of the year is coming, many times, not sure what to do for roles assigned, but just try to figure my way around.. guess i don't like the feeling of uncertainty maybe.. (though think my tolerance for tt is higher now =P).. what i'm doing is really out of my comfort zone.. most of them are not exactly my strengths.. which makes it more 'draining' .. at times wld wonder if i have made a wrong choice.. n how come God wld open door if He knows that it wld not be easy or might not be my SHAPE? Heh.. then I got my 'answer' in a way from the verse.. =)

From the lecture, got to know that parent eagle will actually take the nest apart in its' attempt to teach an 'eaglet' to fly! One stick, at a time, they will toss parts of the nest into the valley which is thousands of feet below. Next, when the nest is almost gone; they will shove their unsuspecting chicks over the edge of the cliff!

BUT, just in the nick of time, the parents will swoop under the eaglets and carry the panic stricken eaglets back up to the nest. After awhile, the parents push them over the edge again! This continues time-after-time until the young ones, after repeatedly falling and fluttering down thousands of feet alongside the cliff toward the jagged rocks below, almost accidentally - begin to fly and their flight training is complete!

Likewise, God wld at times shove me out of my 'nest', comfort zone, in His midst to teach and able me to soar to greater hts and i can be assured that He wld be there to uplift me in due time!

As I type and reflect, thought there are so many things to thank God for in what i'm doing:

- a more globalised perspective, allowed me to interact and get acquainted with people of different nationalities, who knows, perhaps it's a preparation ground for me for missions or even to reach out to different nationalities in Singapore.. =)

-providing a training ground for me.. as the wrk i do is quite out of my comfort zone, though it will take more effort on my part, but guess tt's precisely how i will learn much more.. it will 'train' me in a way on how to present myself when speaking to different people as i observed how my boss, colleagues do it.. networking skills.. planning for events.. thought that these would come in useful in case when i'm tasked to be say a church camp planner? or a wedding planner? heh.. will have the network and skills to do so.. have to seize the opportunity and learn as much as possible!! teaching me to be humble as well.. there are so many things which i dunno or never come across, some of the life experiences of ppl there are qt rich and they r knowledgeable..

-providing me with resources for me to do what i like, thru this wrk, tt's how my french classes can be subsidised and tt's how i can afford the fees =)

-then, i rmb tt time when studying , had a discussion with daisy, mich about the possibility of setting up a cg there.. if we happen to wrk ard there.. think tt was when i was in yr 2 or 3?? cannot rmb, but as i look back, amazed hw i was brought bck to e same place.. (ha tt time when studying, was a goal to wrk there in a way.. =P) tgh no cg was set up.. bt encouraged to know tt there's a grp of Christians there who is very committed to a wrkplace ministry! I thank God that He used them to refresh me at times when i'm really tired!

When things are out of my control, I can be assured that God is in control! =)

Praying that He will guard my heart, not let a complaining and complacent spirit dwell in me, instead, help me give thanks continually and uplift my spirit! To learn fast and give my best, as if working for the Lord and bring glory to Him! Help me see things with His perspective and see where all these might lead to.. need to be refreshed by Him too and praying for more new insights from His Words! =)